Lin's diary (12/4/1990)

12 April 1990

Today was Mick’s 14 years old birthday. I had prepared a birthday cake and a present for him but I had baked it too long until it become black in colour. Never mind I still got a present giving him. The present I’m giving him was the key of my diary. When I reached Mick’s birthday party, I took the present from my back and walk towards to him with a smile. Before I gave the present to him, he introduced me his new girlfriend, Winnie. Winnie is younger than me. She looks very pretty and nice. She also gave Mick a keychain as a birthday present. Mick straight hang it in his wallet but when I gave the present I prepare to him…he just said thanks. Then he just put it aside. My heart felt so weird when he did that. What is that feeling? Is that angry, disappointed or jealous? At that moment, Mick celebrating his birthday with Winnie look so happy and the moment Winnie kiss him and he kiss back her… I know what the feeling I got earlier is jealous. My heart felt so pain and my tear can’t stop flowing out from my eyes when I saw Mick kissed Winnie. I whipped off my tears and walk towards Mick and told him that I’m not feeling well and I’m going home first. All he said to me is “Take care, bye.” After what he said, I straight ran back to home. I keep on thinking why I felt jealous earlier on? When I reach my home, I got the answer. I had such a feeling because I love him. I had fall in love with him since we are small. At 12 midnight, Mick called me and told me what is going on after I went back. Furthermore, he also told me how sweet her girlfriend, Winnie is. While he was saying, my heart felt so pain. It's like a blade stab though my heart. It feels really, really pain. Somebody help…..